Not literally. Remember when I used to take like a million photos? Photos of everything. My kids booboos, the messes they make, the occasional meal that I cooked and just photos of the kids in general. I was just thinking, here I am coming to update this neglected blog and I have no pictures of the kids to share. How did this happen? First thought was that I’ve become lazy but then again, I don’t think that’s the reason. All I take photos of these days are the items that I make. Boo to me.
I’ve been too focused, I guess on trying to make this small business of mine succeed. I guess I can tell myself that it IS all for them but it doesn’t make me feel any better. I just need to try harder to balance everything.
My days don’t seem that full. During the week, I drag myself out of bed at 6:50am, because most times I go to bed after 4am. Yes that’s why I am dragging. Wake up Alyssa and Christopher, get their clothes, make them breakfast, get myself dressed while they’re eating; Load up on layers of clothing to run outside to start the truck (it’s really cold at that time in the morning hahaha), run back in to pack their lunches, wait last minute to wake up Ashleigh and bundle her up, make sure their bags are packed (they tend to forget homework and books), get them all in the truck and drive them to school which is only about 5 minutes because of the 2 traffic lights. Otherwise it’s more like 3 minutes. When I get back, it’s like I am sleep walking so Ashleigh and I jump in the bed and sleep for a couple hours.
Sometimes she watches TV for a little while before she falls asleep with me. Hours later, I’m up to get her some lunch.
I hop online to answer a couple customer e-mails and by the time I am done it’s time to get the kids. They come home and need a snack. After snack time, I help them with homework if they need me to, most times they do. I constantly have to stand over Christopher to remind him to write legibly. I cannot tell you how many times I’ve made him erase his awful handwriting. My teachers used to call that chicken scratch. I won’t allow that mess. He doesn’t have the neatest handwriting but he can write better that what I see sometimes. Anyway, then it’s time for dinner. Oh wait, before that, I have to look over their homework to make sure it’s done correctly.
I seriously look forward to when they’re all asleep, because that’s when my day actually starts. I fill orders and if I get that extra boost I may sew a couple burp cloths or work on some embroidery design to list in the store the next day. When I am finally feeling a bit tired and look at the time, it’s like 3 or 4am. I get mad at myself because every night/morning I tell myself tomorrow I am going to bed earlier because it sucks eggs waking up on little sleep.
So that’s how it’s been. I really need to try harder to find a balance. I need to get more sleep.
Until later,
I don't know how you do it.
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