All messed up

So I lost my header. I was clearing out my saved files from the hosting site for my images and accidentally erased it. Now the blog looks naked. Ebonymommy was nice enough to make it for me now I will have to attempt to do one myself. Until then this is it. A plain and boring looking page unless I can somehow find it on the old computer. Then again I have to add Ms. Ashleigh so scrap that.

Okay Tanyetta, this post is just for you. Okay? :-D

Loving those rolls

Taken last month. I don't think I shared photos from that trip

This one was taken yesterday. She loves that bunny probably because it plays twinkle twinkle little star. That's what I used to sing to her all the time.

I think I am in real trouble with this little girl. I see the kind of attitude she is going to have and I am not looking forward to when she gets a little older and can talk. We can't have 2 little people with their mama's attitude in one house.

I was on FB as always this evening. Ashleigh was really getting rowdy in her bouncy chair. I mean I really thought she would topple it over at the rate those fat little legs were carrying on. She was dancing with excitment at some song I was playing, so I took her out.

I sat at my desk with her in my lap. She's reaching for everything on my desk and I am struggling to push all the crap aside plus type. Hehehe....it wasn't working. She got a hold of an envelope and proceeded to chew on it. I took it away from her. Well the nerve of me! You should have seen the fit this child pitched.

She started banging both hands on the desk and kicking the keyboard tray. She was out of control. I couldn't believe it. I means he is the calmest baby I know. So I turned her so that she was facing me and I asked her what was wrong. That child clawed at me then started screaming like never before.

So I stepped away from the desk, sat on the sofa, laid her in my lap, in went the boobie and 15 minutes later a tired baby was fast asleep in her bed.

Things on my mind

I am so happy to share with you all that my brother and sister in law are doing exceptionally well. Thanks to your positive vibes and prayers. It turns out that they did not have to remove the ovaries just the uterus. So while she will not be able to carry another baby there is still the possibility of them harvesting her eggs and finding a surrogate.

My brother had initially told my mom they were open to adoption. They also discussed finding a surrogate which he shared with my mom tonight. He has not discussed this with me as of yet. The funny thing is, that day when we had the texting marathon and all was said and done, I cried to my husband telling him I wished there was some way I could carry a baby for them. I was also under the impression that since it's my brother's sperm that it was not possible but after doing some research I believe that I was mistaken. After all it's not my eggs that are being used, right? I could be wrong.

But still it is just a thought. I know how serious this is but I honestly believe if they brought this to me I would say yes in heartbeat. Better me than some stranger. It would fill my heart with such joy to bring them this kind of happiness. Plus if anything else they would have to come visit us and my kids would finally meet their uncle, auntie and cousin.

But like I said, just a thought.

I still can't stop laughing

Taken 12-19-2006

Look at Alyssa's face

He always liked to hug his baby sister, he just didn't know how to do it softly at this point.

As they say, When it rains it pours

Thank You everyone for keeping the family in your thoughts and prayers. My SIL is doing as well as could be expected given the circumstances. She was discharged on Sunday and is now at home. My mom spoke to her and she said she sounded okay. Every few minutes, sometimes every hour of the day I find myself in tears just thinking about what happened last week. I just hurt so much for them. So I tried my best to keep busy today to get my mind off of things.

And if that wasn't enough now my grieving brother has to worry about our dad. More texts = more worry. It started last night. The message read: "I just took Tony's(our dad) blood pressure and it was 200/106 the first time. The second time I took it, it is was 230/115. I hope my machine is wrong but I am taking him to the doctor tomorrow. I'll call you when I get back"

Now I don't know what the systolic and diastolic numbers of a 67 yr old is supposed to be, but I definitely knew those numbers were extremely high, for anyone. So my brother called and said our dad's blood pressure was indeed high, 235/120-something. They gave him medication and did a bunch of blood work but he is fine so don't start worrying. Yes, he's telling me not to worry.

I called my mom to tell her and she says she had no idea someone's blood pressure could actually be so high and they could be functioning normally.

Doesn't this cause stroke? And I wonder if he is diabetic and just doesn't know it since he never goes to the doctor.

Anyway, on the brighter side in all the worry I managed to sew a dress today. Ashleigh was kind enough to model it for the photo even though it is way too big. Alyssa refused to help me out on this one.

I think she looks so pretty in it

I have a deep pain in my heart

This week has been terrible for my family. My brother and his wife were expecting their second baby. They have a 4 yr old daughter, my niece, whom I've never met.

Tuesday I received a text from him that his wife is in the hospital. She's showing early signs of labor at 24 weeks. She was having contractions and slight leaking. I stress naturally so this didn't come over well with me. This is when the migraine came and it lasted for 2 days. Still he tells me don't worry.

They put her on medication to stop the contractions and it seemed to be working. She was to stay for observation and if all went well she would be put on bed rest. Wednesday morning he texted me again saying that her water broke and it was just a matter of time before his son would come. I was so sick but I tried to stay positive. I told him there is always a possibility the baby may get through this. Probably a long hospital stay and some problems but don't give up yet.

Throughout the day we all waited then things took a turn for the worst later that day. He texted me saying that he needed to call. I knew this was not good.

His wife was rushed off for emergency surgery. He kept saying he couldn't believe it, how things just changed so quickly. Up until then he was very calm and holding it together. He had to for her and his daughter. I don't think things had really hit him yet. He had given up on having a living baby and concern had switched to his wife.

She had no pulse. The only comfort was knowing that her doctor was probably the best one in the country and he travels all over the world. He signs all the papers allowing them to perform a hysterectomy if necessary. Anything to save his wife.

1 3/4 hours later he calls back. Sadly her uterus had ruptured and she was bleeding out. I couldn't even talk. He's standing outside the operating room giving me the update the doctor had given him. She was being taken to the ICU. Now there is concern of infection so they are putting her on antibiotics and observing. She had lost a lot of blood and was on her 3rd pint. My head was spinning.

A short while later he calls back probably because I was texting the heck out of his phone. He had gotten to see his son. He was about 1 ft long. "The priest is coming in the morning". I couldn't even stop crying.

Now he was trying to figure out some way to tell our mom. She is worse than I when it comes to stress and he didn't know how she would respond to the news.
I told him it may be better if his wife could just say something to my mom. Then at least my mom would hear her voice. I don't know, I didn't know what else to say. So he was waiting until his wife could talk which was last night.

She is now considered stable and was moved to her own room out of ICU. This was last night so I don't even know if he got the strength to call and tell our mom.

I am so sad for them. I was really hoping that it wouldn't come to this. I know the loss is horrible but it's even worse that there won't be any "trying" again. I only hope they get through this and stay strong for their daughter. I told him they need to get some help and support group because this is not going to be easy to get through. I needed to tell him that because I know he feels he can deal with this alone.

Life is so fragile. Please keep my family in your thoughts and prayers.

Mysterious Messes

I wonder if the culprit, who I later learned was Christopher, thought it would magically disappear?

Me: (calling out from the kitchen) Who made the mess in the fridge?
Alyssa : It was Christopher
Christopher : Yes it was me but it was just an accident.

Me : Uhm okay, that still doesn't make it okay to just leave the mess.
Christopher : Sorry mom.
Me: No problem just come clean it up please.

The end.

What am I going to do with these kids?

I'm so late

What's going on with us? I have 3 sick kids, Ashleigh being the worst but we're surviving. Today I went to the Kindergarten to pick up the registration packet. We have to turn it in between April 1st - 30th. I cannot believe it's so close. Didn't I just push this boy out, big head and all?

Last night I was thinking about this next stage in his young life and I felt so overwhelmed with everything that needed to be done including the requirements for enrollment. I felt like I couldn't do it all hauling 3 kids. Pray for me.

To my oldest baby
February 2nd 2004 @ 7:01pm
I was so scared. You weren't crying. I don't think I was breathing as I waited. They rushed you over there and I had no idea what was going on. Daddy, armed with camera in hand photographed. You were in distress because the cord was wrapped around your neck. You came out with the assistance of a vacuum. Thank God for my doctor, Dr. Helen Chang. She knew to induce me 2 weeks before you were due. You were getting too big for mommy. She has more years of experience than my life in this world. She is a pro!

My sweet boy.

The proud papa!
I love this. You see how big his head was :-) and check out the scrawny legs. Makes me wanna do this again! Quick someone slap me!!!

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So Christopher's birthday has come and gone. He loved it. Next year we will actually plan so that we can invite some of his friends.

We decided on Friday that we would rent the jumper but we could not get a hold of the company we wanted to deal with so my husband got a list of them from the internet and started calling one by one and we had success.
He was so excited when he saw it! And so the jumping began They jumped and jumped Auntie joined in on the fun and so did I a bit later. Can you tell he was having a blast! Lazy Lyssa had had enough Someone got carried away! Oh and Tanyetta (if you remembered what I had posted) we're still waiting on our plate hehehehehe.... Heading inside for...... Cake! Then presents... presents.... Yay! One of the gifts from auntie. She also brought the cake They were laughing at me when I grabbed it out the trash. Crafty mamas always have other ideas Yay for learning games....from Grandpa and his lady And yay for sports! This was from daddy and I..... And Ashleigh was present in her party-wear He had a wonderful time even though it was just family and our neighbor. Needless to say they both slept well that night.

Some people really make me wonder

I was heading home from the park today when I heard the sounds of a fire truck. We all know as drivers that you're supposed to pull over to the side to let the vehicle pass, right?

Well, there are 2 minivans in front of me the one to the extreme front pulls over as he should have. The person directly in front of me(behind the 1st minivan) obviously wasn't paying attention and almost rear ends the first minivan. The driver at fault gets furious as I see him pull out from behind the other vehicle and changes lanes very quickly. His van swerves. He then races in front of the other driver and takes a very sharp right turn and ends up directly in front of him. I changed lanes immediately and slowed down as not to be close to that idiot. I don't know how they didn't collide.

And the sickening part is, both guys had children in the vehicle. I mean really, is this madness worth it? I was so scared for those kids. Someone needs some anger treatment.